dearest You,

i’ve watched your ocean eyes

turn somber and stormy

and i know i’m the cause

i brought up something you thought you placed

in your past

you’ve rid it from you

but now you see it in me

 

and i’m sorry

and this is my apology

 

that night on the staircase

you watched me melt

watched everything built up inside of me

drip through my eyes

 

you don’t have to cry for me

keep your glasses on

and your eyes dry

i’ll weep enough for the both of us

 

i’m an astronaut

and you’re my lifeline

don’t let me go

 

you let me lean against you

that night on the staircase

and you held my hand

and tried to steady your breathing

so you could steady mine

you wrapped your arms so tightly around me

so that i couldn’t run away

wild and loose and free

and so that i couldn’t play with sharp things

 

you tell me that i’m trapping myself

but you’re here for me

and so is she

and that’s all i could ask for-

for you to come and help free me

 

and i’m grateful

and this is my thank you

 

everything that’s real is slipping

through my fingers

except for you

and the way your eyes

looked into mine

and the way you said

you loved me

and i whispered back

me too

 

and you pressed pause

that night on the staircase

and time sat still

and you told me

“you’ll live in my arms

and we’ll just breathe

for as long as you

sit next to me”

 

so i’ll live in your arms

and your love will seep into me

and as long as you are here

i can last almost till infinity

 

love,

Me