Seasons of our love
We fell in love in late spring
As cool wind nipped at our cheeks
we found warmth in each others bodies
Our love blossomed into the summer
Hot, sunny days
Walking trails hand in hand
Spraying each other with the garden hose
as we fell deeper into autumn and the leaves crackled under our feet
And we were again welcomed
Into the arms of a gentle breeze
But when the snow began to fall
Something in your eyes changed
And this home we built, no longer felt like home at all
Every nook and crevice etched in the mundane memories of our lament love story
The seasons they came and went
Years bleeding into each other
Until the day I found myself screaming for my mother into my pillow
Choking and gasping on the words I could never swallow
You spit venom all over my name, meanwhile I immortalized you so much people actually began to believe me
I think even more so than I ever believed myself
I tried, I really did
I wrote you silly little love poems; spilling my heart out onto the pages, only to realize you never even liked poetry at all
Did you even read them?
To be loved by you.. well the truth is that was the only thing I ever aspired.
My dreams dissipated, as all I wanted was to be the girl you loved so deeply it made your bones ache.
But now only my bones ache. From carrying the weight of your expectations.
You were the beauty in the world that I wished to paint all over my body. Permanent markings to look back on when I am old and withered, and there is nothing else left of me. You were the mountains on my collarbone, the rose on my ankle. Memories made and forever etched in the black ink on my skin.
But for you, I was just a bookmark placed in this chapter of your life. Always disposable. My name lost its significance the very moment the chapter ended.
You left me here alone
So now I sit here, and I rot with the flowers in our garden