dreams
Dreams are stupid.
I dont mean the
"I have a dream"
or
"my dream is to be a";
I mean the
"last night I dreamt"
and the
"I had the best dream".
I couldn't care less about your
meaningless brain activity
random pieces of reality
nonsensical somatical impulses.
We are fascinated with our own
electricity
as if they are
reality.
But I know it's just your human body brain blood.
There is no supernatural fantasy at work.
It means nothing that
I consistently have dreams about
a dystopic-apocalypse
where I'm running away,
where my loved ones die,
where my city is broken.
It means nothing that
all these episodes are always
consistently linked, overlapping, that
the system is broken
and we have to build from scratch.
They’re not nightmares, I think
but they’re not happy dreams.
they’re laced with despair
and helplessness,
with longing
and loneliness.
I see men in uniform, and it no longer matters what side
their weapons blindly firing, feeding, fucking.
I see beasts that growl in every language but mine
overthrowing their chains only to attack their brothers.
I see burning buildings with the smoke of corpses
that never had the hope of escaping, the only light they saw
was their death.
And then I wake up.
And I brush my teeth.
And I get dressed.
And I skip breakfast.
And I go to school.
Because it's pointless.
And when I lay down again,
lead to believe I am safe under covers,
I know dreams tell me nothing
I haven't already known.
My mom would tell me it probably has something to do with
how stressed out I am
all the time,
and she’s probably right.
I hope.