A Dangerous Situation
Laughter roars in my ears.
I glare at my zoology teacher.
I’m aghast at the sight before me.
My inability to comprehend
The sight of teacher turned instigator
Renders me helpless.
The spectacle before me
Is incomprehensible.
The pure callousness of that smirk
Strikes a nerve,
And I am filled with such an intense urge
To forcefully remove it from her face.
I attempt to shake the intensity,
But lack the ability to do so;
The urge is so intense
I feel it consuming my morality
Engulfing me with searing hatred.
I raged inside
But I’m conflicted;
With protecting the loner- gothic boy
Victim of the popular crowd,
And their need to be entertained;
And protecting myself from expulsion.
When I returned to high school
After dropping out, junior year,
I was a nineteen year old student
Amongst seventeen year old students,
And younger.
Where their focus was solely the present,
My sole focus was graduation;
Paving a brighter future for me;
A future focused solely on success;
My success…
Which coincided with a behavior contract.
I was adamant,
In relation to my studies
An extremist to the point of insanity.
Anti- social described me almost perfectly;
But, so did eccentricity.
Stereotypically, I was labeled a loner- nerd.
It served a purpose just the same.
Presently my stance on popularity
Defies any sense of normality.
It is irrelevant.
To me it’s a pompous idea,
Instilled within a corrupt social mechanism
By bigots
With nothing better to consume their time.
Columbine flashed before my mind’s eye
As I became a spectator
To a cruel yet not unusual entertainment.
I was blessed
With immunity to the disease known as popularity.
The immunity brought with it
Empathy.
At that moment in my high school life,
My past revisited me;
All the times I was bullied
Flashed across my eyes
Projecting images of an eight year old child,
Lonely and crying;
Perplexed by her bullies motives.
Reminding me of the suffering inflicted upon me
For their entertainment.
At that moment I decided
It was now or never.
The popular crowd
Would not claim another trophy
In my presence.
The principle explained to me
That the popular crowd involved
Was not to blame.
The culprit was the victim.
The popular crowd were outstanding pupils;
And the victim was every teachers’ worst nightmare.
The zoology teacher
Must have dug her talons in him;
She and the loner- gothic student
Failed to comprehend the reason for the others existence.
Every class period
Which happened to be the last period of the day,
Erupted into an unnecessary argument
Between the two;
Zoology proved to be my least inspiring class.
A girl from the popular crowd “V”,
Was in the midst of it all
She had potential
I wanted to protect her too;
She reminded me of my sister;
Which brought up dreadful memories.
Unable to protect my sister,’
I vowed to protect “V”.
I slipped her name to the principal,
Not so much as punishment’
But rather a second chance;
A chance to redeem herself.
The other members of the entourage
Were a lost cause.
They discovered pleasure
In the company of suffering.
I walked into a sobbing “V”
She had just left the principal,
She was mortified
That someone thought she was a bully.
Every day after that, the loner- gothic boy
Was treated as an equal.
“V” spoke to him,
Even sat with him
While the others remained silent
And kept their distance.
To this day the surprise
In the eyes of the zoology teacher,
When I revealed it was I
Whose lips whispered the sweet truth,
In the ear of the principal,
Ceases to amuse me.
And to this day “V”
Is unaware of my role in the ordeal.
As for the loner- gothic boy,
He was a ticking time bomb,
The wrong move would have set him off
Obliterating any and all innocent bystanders.
I was protecting us all;
Not just him.
I was a silent protector
Performing damage control
And I saw the situation for what it was…
Dangerous, but preventable;
Repairable.
Any righteous human being would have done the same.