Innocence
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Once she said she was going to come back
Like she said every few months
And then we wouldn’t hear from her for some week
And we still played with joy and buoyancy
She always came back
Once I played with toy skateboards
All my friends were boys that I wrestled
And she didn’t come back this time
And this time she wrote a note
With a bottle of alcohol next to her
And this time she didn’t promise
I was in foster car
And all of the families seemed
Like just a place to sleep
Once there were kids who shot bullets
Out of their mouths
Except those bullets were words
And those bullets hit me
And it started because I liked my friend
Who happened to be a girl
So I started isolating myself
And was surrounded by my thoughts
Instead of people
Once the only pain I could feel
Was the sting of a razor sliding against my skin
And the only calming thing was the sight of my own blood
And candy became pills for me
The only thing that would that would distract me but
after it was over, the rush, reality came back
And that’s when the cuts started to become horizontal instead of vertical
Once there was a girl whose words were as calming as waterfalls
And we would talk for hours, about everything
And she helped me forget about things, without drugs, or a razor
She became a great friend
And I became hers
I learned to deal with life
And I learned what it’s like to have someone there for you
How to be happy for a while
How to make others happy
And how to forget the past
Despite all the bad