Poems from emma-leah

Hi i'm 34 from Christchurch, New Zealand in recovery from depression, BPD and anorexia which influences my poetry a lot. Cat lover, published poet for 16 years, training in social work.
Do you want to go on like this almost forever?
Do you want a life of death living in the shadows?
Do you want to live in a carved canvas,...
The world drains of colour
Black mourning in my eyes
Too many times
I've stared death in the eye
So close
I could feel his cold...
It's about the locked door
it's about the sound of a slipped belt
trauma like brain damage
it's about shrunken corners that don't shelter...
His carcus lies outside
naked and rotting
discarded limbs push out
of the bin protruding skywards
his murder, i plead insanity
he drove me...
My body is a cocoon of pungent regret
holding its breath for the metamorphisis to a butterfly of knowledge
my body is a hub of nocturnal...