My mother raised me to "outsmart" love
"Never let a man know your every move. Always keep him wondering"
She fucked me up
Conditioned me to think strategic in this love game
I was better off playing chess
She tried to steal my heart
Telling me, Men don't love, at least they'll never love like we do
Now I'm paranoid
Maybe hearts don't break equally
I can't be the fool, though
At least, not in the face of my mother
'Cause in love, nobody is more critical than the people around you
They say, They see what you don't see
But different faiths cause us to see differently
So if the way to a man's heart is through his stomach, let that be your imagery
I've seen my mother cook for my father countless of times
He looks miserable, how pitiful
Arranged marriages, under 'I do' and 'he does'
I can't choose my mate, according to what he can do for me
I rather judge his qualities to see if he can do things with me
And I wonder deep down,
If you Envy,
The possibility
Of me having a man that gives me better than what my father gave you
Things are different now
I'm not looking for financial security
And as pathetic as it may sound, I rather have security in being able to open my heart
You may never understand that and that's fine
But to bash a man that has done nothing more but support me, is selfish
You painted your image of man, long time ago
And now you won't see the genuineness in any man that comes near me
Putting things in my ear, having me fight with doubt
You made me ashamed to even like a boy
'Cause like is a sign of weakness
In your eyes, its always been wrong to give my all to a man
That's why I struggle with simple tasks as easy as answering the phone when he calls
'Cause if you only knew how I felt for him, you would call me 'stupid & sprung'
I'm only dumb, when it comes to letting you mind fuck me
But you can't fuck me, like he fucks me
So this time, you can't win