There's something deep inside my soul

But I can't get serious babe

And honesty is a broken toy

Spinning pirouettes around the lonliness

That I've not only come to know

But embrace with a ferocity

That my broken-hearted past used to dread

In all weather including fair

At the risk of spilling tears

That I simply cannot afford to let

I break the ice covering truth

And share just enough to know

I never should have driven you away like this

When lies would have said as much

And kept you nearer than the far-away that you have become

In my familiar fetal-heap I weep

Knowing you'll never even send a postcard

To taunt me with the sunny weather

You bask in with a lover who will never

Love you as much as my twisted way

I stare through shattered windowpanes

In the dusty-coldness and the vastness

Of an empty room which we once shared

And made lovers love for your shadow

That I hope has lost it's way and

Remains behind to love me

Long after you have gone without

Ever waving goodbye

01-09-1996