You took me

When I look into the mirror
I see a girl-
A girl who hides behind her skin
I see a girl-
A girl with a look in her eyes 
A look of regret
A look of sorrow
A look of a painful experience
I see what you've made me to be
I am a victim of yours 
I am the girl they talk about 
I am your victim 
I am the girl you damaged 
I am your victim
You're fucking victim 
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When I look into the mirror 
I see nobody 
I feel nobody 
I hear nobody 
When I look into the mirror
I see the fear blazing into my eyes 
I feel the masculine of your hands beaming down on me 
I hear your muffled groans and audible grunts
I am what you've made me to be
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I had a life 
I planned a future
I wanted love 
I wanted a husband 
I wanted children
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I wanted so damn much but-
I want you,
I want you dead
Buried six feet plus in the piss soiled ground 
I want you gone 
Banished to hell!
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When I look into the mirror 
I see the outcome of my most horrid nightmare 
I feel the bile rising in my throat because you never fail to make me sick-
I fear you 
I hate you 
I FUCKING HATE YOU
But you're the only one I can think about. 
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I was raised 
I was loved 
I loved too 
But you took that from me 
You took so much from me
Confidence, you took from me
Bluntness, you took from me 
Pride, you took from me
I believed in myself 
I had faith in myself 
But you took that from me 
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I see you, Often enough
On the streets, selling dope
Riding around, lookin for bimbos
In my dreams, raping me again!
You destroyed me, you took my womanhood away 
You did this to me! 
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LOOK AT ME! 
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I can't walk outside alone because of you 
I avoid alleys because of you 
I hide behind tinted sunglasses hoping and praying I don't run into you
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You changed my life in more ways than you can imagine
I am not the same person I used to be
I am not the same person I was last year
I am not the same person who completed high school 
I'm not same person who politely introduced myself to you
I am not the same person my parents knew me as 
I- I-... I am nobody 
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All because you took myself from me.

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