It's my outlet and my way of escape
The night before a 37 mile relay
I wanted to run
not to rest and hydrate
I needed the escape
from the pain and confusion swirling in my brain
The next day, me and three other people had to run 130miles total
my excitement was hiding
hiding under the why?
The night before my aunt told me she needed chemo
after a double mastectomy
She went through enough and now has to fight to stay alive
There's the why?
Why do people have to fight to stay alive
while druggies are destroying their bodies?
Why does the person with the unhealthy diet
keep eating that way?
Why will my aunt, who exercises regularly
have to stop exercising
so she can fight a battle against cancer?
Why do people lose the war?
The next day, as I was running
my thoughts floated as my body dragged.
Once my mind was hovering in between light and easy
the pace where I can think and not hurt and still cover ground
Why do people not run
or move their body
get this sensation
bike swim something that gets you active
so that two million humans do not die every year from
the thing we can all fix
and why is my aunt, my mentor inspiration
saddled with something that can't be fixed?
No one can answer
but while running in the desert, I thought I had the answer.