Why do I love you?
Why do I care?

That gorgeous smile of yours.
The way you hair peaks down in a perfect wave.

Why do I still talk to you?
Because I can’t fathom the thought of a life without you.

Why am I still here?
All that pain.
Nothing has been gained.

Everything I lost.
Every feeling of happiness.
Every tiny slither of hope you gave me.

Why do I even bother with you anymore?
I can’t lose you.
I can’t live a life without you.

The only future I can imagine is a beautiful one,
With you in it.

One where we live together up North.
One where we cook together,
Laugh together,
Go to sleep at the crack of dawn
Because we were too busy being our foolish selves.
Foolish, handsome you.
Foolish. Me.

Why do I still care?
I can’t help myself.

Why do I still love you?
I don’t know why,
quite yet.