Hug my mom goodbye, wipe the tears from her precious eyes,
She held me saying, "I don't want my son to die."
Who knew that I could feel so down in a place I called home?
Captivated by negativity and always feeling alone,
Maybe it's my fault for assuming things would be the same,
I forgot the one thing constant in this world is change,
The people I called "fam" and the ones I use to kick it with,
Turned into assholes and became flat out ignorant,
Come to find out, while I was gone, they were talking shit,
It came to my attention I had to watch who I was fucking with,
People you find "close" can turn their face the other way around,
They're like crabs in a pot, once you make it to the top, they grab hold and pull you back down,
It's crazy how the people closest to you,
Can hurt you the most when they decide to screw you,
But as I had time to myself, the picture became clearer,
The REAL bad guy was the reflection in the mirror,
And I could never come to any satisfaction,
Until I admitted I was responsible for all these actions,
All this time I was blaming some one else,
When the truth of the matter was I was doing this to myself,
I guess it's time for me to make things right,
Fuck the ones who left me in the past, there's a reason they won't appear later on in life,
So young, but still many things I gotta learn,
I just hope my momma know that her "baby boy" is gonna return.