When I close my eyes

When I close my eyes

I can see your face

Your pain harden soft wrinkles

That once caressed you gently

Heavy weight

Arms crossed with deep sighs

The burden not to die

So soon after all


When I close my eyes 

I can hear your laughter

As it echoes in my head

Endless stories are reminders

Of a better past

Yet old memories always

Soon forgotten with drinking

Leaving you lonely nights


When I close my eyes

I can feel your cursing

Your tongue flicking fire

Words of bitter tasting

From past love

Taken without consent

Which you have come to miss

Every day again


When I close my eyes

I can touch the time

Embrace hurtful conversations

Your existence as you were

Made me 

Wishing most of all each day

That it could have lasted



This poem is about: 
My family


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