What You See, Isn't What You Get
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I'm sitting here, and
asking her if she's okay, but I'm not looking at her
My eyes are looking past her, and
my mind is elsewhere
She's so angelic ,and
I'm so powerless
All I can do is smile faintly
My heart gets heavy when I think of him
yet I try to exist without the
thought of ever being able to feel his touch ,and
hear his words and it's killing me ,but
I know I've faced death many times before ,and
I've won and I just want to...I just want to forget
Raw, bear, naked.
I've never felt so exposed in my life
My body is emitting so much pain and confusion
It's all pouring out of my body like poison
She said sorry G and I said it's okay without looking at her
I hug her close to me because that physical contact is all I have,
true ,pure and so innocent
I'm afraid I'll never feel anything again
so I hold her close to me ,and
whisper it's okay to her until she wiggles out of my arms ,and
goes back under the table to play ,and I'm left alone,
left alone to pounder upon my sins
I find myself guilty of any treason I might be found of
My eyes are tired, and
I struggle to keep it open
I don't want anyone to see my bare,
bruised black heart, like they can see my nakedness
So I smile ,and laugh ,and
go back into the closet
It's all I've ever known
If no one expected me to be happy, what would I be then
If I could be myself, who would I be
What would I be like
What would I look like
How would I react or threat others
Who am I
Who do I want to be
Who do you want me to be