What You Don't see
What you don't see is that I'm becoming the woman you've wanted me to become
Instead I'm lazy, careless, and everything in between
What you don't see is that I try my best in school
You think I don't care at all, yet I get A’s and B’s on my report card in all of my honors classes
What you don't see is that I'm anxious and insecure
From all of your years of degrading me that shouldn't be a surprise to you
… but it probably is
What you don't see is how I can’t love myself
because you’ve stopped loving me so suddenly
What you don't see is how I break down after each and every argument
Feeling like I'm hopeless and worthless
What you don't see is that I'm falling in love with a great man
Instead you focus on everything thats wrong with him
What you don't see is that my father is now more involved with my life than you are
And he lives 400 miles away
What you don't see is that I'm trying to fix what's broken
But you just keep tearing it apart
What you see is a girl that is lazy, disrespectful, and careless
What I see is a mother that doesn't love her daughter, instead she is seen as a slave
You lived your life through me and make me feel worthless
You made a mistake at 20 years old and now I'm the result
I've believed everything you said to me and now I'm broken, unable to be fixed
I can't even remember the last time you told me you were proud of me
Why can't you see me for who I really am