Combing through apartments on Craigslist
the search bar can help me figure out my priorities
Fear. I'm terrified.
Confident that I CAN succeed but...
will I want to?
What did I create of myself?
Constantly striving to be a consistent solid version
of who I actually am
but what does that even mean?
Why is the world so unchanging?
I am trillions of tiny spheres
all jiggling around inside of me
and the world is hard and fast.
It cannot be broken but I..
I feel that I can be exploded.
Who let my resolve abandon me at such an hour?
I know I can. It has been more difficult before.
There will be good people nearby
It will work out
I won't be a dissappointment
Good job, kid.
You can do it. Try again.