Tossing and Turning,

Another hard night,

Memories I fight,

What happend?

 

Everything started as a dream,

We met at a dance,

I fell, he fell,

The romance continues.

 

We texted everyday,

Three days in,

the relationship begins,

He is the one.

 

Months down the line,

I want to wait until marriage,

He says,

"Why wait when we will marry anyway."

 

My mom's rule,

I wait until I am sixteen,

It was anything but a dream,

The relationship turns.

 

Arugments were frequent,

The blame was always on me.

It is my fault...

My fault...

My fault.

 

I am not like other girls,

I am flat in the front and back,

It felt like an attack,

When he would compare me to friends.

 

I would consent,

I did not want him upset,

It would hurt and I would voice it,

he would always reply with...

"Just a little bit longer."

 

I learned to take the pain,

In this, I had fallen,

I felt like callin,

For someone to save me.

 

Things ended,

I was crushed with despair.

Could not eat.

Could not sleep.

Could not feel.

 

I turned to old habits,

Restricted eating,

Caused some bleeding,

Became numb.

 

My co-workers cheered me up,

In this, I found who cared,

I got his snap,

We talked a lot.

 

I started to fall again,

Tried to stop,

Did not want it to flop,

like my old relationship.

 

We started to date,

I told him my story,

He cried for me,

I knew he cared.

 

He does not care about my scars,

Physical or mental,

He has been so gentle,

With helping me heal them.

 

Toxic relationships are hard to realize,

Escpecially while you are in them,

But always remember your values,

A good partner, will respect them.