I have to go to college because it's expected.

There's no alternative.

So yeah, I'll sign up for calculus and physics.

I'll take the SAT twice.

Does it matter that I don't give a shit about math and science?

That I don't give a shit about anything?

I'm unmotivated.

Life is bullshit.

Everything is pointless,

but no one knows I feel this way.

I tell them that school is a waste of my time and they laugh along with me,

but I'm being serious.

I don't care,

but I'll maintain the facade,

act like the model student, stick my nose in a book, and plaster a smile on my face when college acceptance letters come in.