weight of the NOTHINGNESS
In the hollow sockets, where my soul used to peer out;
In the empty cavern, where my heart used to burst;
In this concave room, I am caught.
My hands have shrunk and my back has been bent by the oppressive weight of the nothingness.
The empty room is heavy with the haunted silence.
I am haunted by the life I once found there,
The cave, where my heart should be, echoes with irregular booms;
The drums of fleeting passion resonate in that fleshy chamber of my chest. My head droops with the weight of the nothingness.
The words I hear are hollow, but they sink me to the bottom of my ocean.
The things I do are whisked away in an instant.
The meaningless motion I try so hard to prefect, wears away at my bones.
There is no rest in this eternal chase.
Such is the cost of my joy hungry heart.
I find not rest in this ashen wasteland.
A race ever onward, without reward and without end.
My brittle bones long for action, but break at my first step.
My hollow eyes yearn for a glimpse of glittering starlight, but burn from the the furnaces within.
I long for what I ought no have.
I take of things, which hold not my name.
I want to deserve the one who should rightly despise me for my filth.
I come to see I need, truly and desperately, your strength.
I need your new life, new soul and new passion.
I am dried and dead in this wasteland without you, Oh God.