there's a pain in my heart
and now there is no going back
its a mental war and im under attack
i find that i love and i care but now im on my own do i say why?
i dont dare
a stupid decision, my one regret. I hate myself for choosing
but there still time left yet
theres time for me to see, to ackinowledge and change
but i dont see that going
life is just too goddamn strange
and now im back to where i was before, self harm and depression
my blood drips to the floor
and this is my decision?
this is why i lost you?
well i dont know know,
damn it felt like a trade off i just couldnt refuse
but i know deep in my heart no one will ever fill your shoes
no one has that laugh or that smirk or that tone
that makes this so much harder,
that makes me feel more alone
now my heart is feeling heavy
and my head is with doubt,
so i suppose i'll just have to move on
and have to figure this all out
no this wasnt my plan
i wanted us to stay
but im not going to lie and well
you arent gay
so now this hurts us both
and i swear i didnt mean to make us feel this way
the break was suppose to be clean
but how could it be?
when the feelings remain, i guess its safe to say
"we will never be the same"