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I'm sick of writing poems about depression sadness and anxiety

Im sick of being told that whatever I'm facing is just a part of life.
While the pain is now a part of me

Im sick of sitting and thinking kneeling and pondering on how will i put together words not only to explain how or what it may be that i feel but...perhaps..even heal me.

They say time heals all wounds but
I'm sick of waiting for time to heal wounds that can only be seen, noticed and understood by the pen in my hand and the book on my lap.

Im sick of trying to close my eyes so these tears don't flow like water from a broken tap
Im sick of hiding the pain on my face with a hat or a cap.

I'm sick of living a lie tired of all the cry
Im sick of holding onto friendship that died relationships that ended long ago
I'm sick of clinging to people that only desired to let me go

I'm sick of destiny being a betrayer
Fate being so honest and my bad behavior being hard let go of

I'm sick of trying to be every friends bestfriend only to get in return your back backstabbed

I'm sick of loving and cherishing happy moments with those close to me
Only to find them far from me when i truly need them

I'm sick of waking up every morning as that heartbroken poet,writer or story teller
I'm sick of punching walls kicking tables and being alone
I'm sick of being sick and not be able to find the cure leave alone the reason behind it all..

I'm sick of being lost and not knowing where I'm coming from or where do i go

Is my life a dream..because I'm tired of sleeping
This is more like reality
Can i be awoken or...have i already died and being alive is a way to punish me...

Someone once said it's better to feel numb than feel love at all

I say it's best to not feel anything because even numbness is a feeling.

Like seasons,reasons and people..feelings can change at some point in time.

I'm not a poet
I'm not a writer
Just a person sick of living.

This poem is about: 
Me

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