My hearts been beating rapid 

From the thought of you 

Is that me falling in lo... shh  that feeling is a bad habit..

Why would I wanna inherit All your pain?

Am I losing a screw 

I’d endure your pain to see your pretty smile 

That’s selfish  I know but I have been for a while 

I’d endure pain to listen to the rhythm of your voice as you read your poetry 

I’d find a way to end your pain 

And go back to just singing songs with you in  your room

Pray for days I could brush you off your feet like a broom

I could feel a letter in cursive on my heart trying to mark its domain 

But it’s so confusing maybe it’s not cursive

And it’s in a font of new Roman 

I’m probably tripping 

But if the results was for you ..

What does that mean for us ?

No not the us I picture In my head

The us that are friends

I should of kept my feelings quiet 

But now my head and heart are having a riot

And up to this poem

I suffered in silent 

If  someone said Id fall for some from the Bronx 

I’d say that’s a Bronx tail

But here you came along 

Now my heart seems frail 

After it was made bitter by all before you 

But I wasn’t prepared  to meet a jewel 

This isn’t love but the feelings I developed is  dam near close 

Got me making topics to discuss  with you in my notes..

It’s not love but I feel like we will never be ..

Until you see

Until you see your own path and beat your demons..

And all though it’s not love I can feel a tear

Maybe it’s the ink of your name disappearing from my heart

Maybe it’s my mind saying we never had a start

Maybe it’s con Ed tryna to avoid are spark 

Could I be drinking more to avoid that or you

Feelings always been a Curse and   It always get the worse 

So maybe I’ll hold the tears back

With a positive reaction 

Feelings in subtraction

Where i can say I love you as a friend 

And this is the part where I  sit back and stay by your side and call My feelings pretend  

But all I do hope is your future ascends

Because baby girl you are truly heaven sent 

Here is to you friend..