Pieces of glass sleep upon my bed 'you made your bed, you lie in it' I walk down a hall to our shelter. With a dog's nose I smell the air. Sickly sweet, it slows me. With a cat's eyes I look there. Painfully real, it shows me. With a slow child's feet I take a step. Suddenly aware, it takes me. With a mute's tongue I plead my case. Harshly put, it shakes me. We have been thrown before we are but dust on winter coats in summer. Thrown from one worthless treasure to another. How quickly we have fallen. Who is to blame for our ship's sinking? A siren sings to our loved ones. They have cursed us with ourselves. A permanent mirror rests in front of us.  Our reflection has captured us. So unfairly painted is the story of our lives where every truth is far more intricate  than the lies we had hoped would save us. We are fallen and you claim there is no shame in it. Lies! We are full of shame. Turning on one another. A hungry beast whose meal is blame. For this dead animal you try to will back to life. 'Your only as strong as your will' What will you have me do? For a vacant heart, A rented soul. A place to hide our truths in boxes, A pretty garden and under each tulip, We strategically buried those stories. Your hurtful parents are in a box, behind the family memories we couldn't afford, inside the room that none is allowed in.  Our dinning room laughs at us for every night they're left empty  with a lost identity they turn manic. 'If only you could save us' from what are we "saved" Do you even remember who the villains are anymore? I am not a threat, but I am terrified of myself. I am afraid of the truths I'll find, in boxes at the end of the hall. I am not as skilled as you. My dreams and nightmares draped on my dresser for the world to see. I'm not smart enough to hide them well. Their stories so intertwined they're tangled. Knots and loose ends lay unscathed. A mountain whose summit is unknown. We are a beast who mastered in lies, in hiding inconvenient truths, in carrying light in the dark.  We are not blameless, not shameless. Who do I hold accountable for my lies? My unfair truths? My unfortunate circumstances? Tell me who to blame!