Make me

Undo me

Or just see right through me

Help me

Hurt me

Or just leave me be

I'm pulling all directions

I'm screaming to find

A place where I fit in

In my own insides

The wings on my back

This secondary world

The stuff underneath the seeable

There's a disco beat in my mind

When I should be asleep

My suffering left undefined

Will break me up

These words will never come out right

My skin feels too tight

A trickle of my mind on page

Can't express what I want to say

But when I speak words out loud

They never quite work out

Lost between the spaces are

The real thoughts in my head

They bounce around my skull

Someday they'll make me dead

I want curly hair and ball gowns

I want alabaster skin

I want to stand out and be beautiful

I want to be normal and fit in

I care what others think

Yet I leave them all behind

Late at night alone is the only time

For the darkness in my mind

I don't believe in god

But I pray to someone there

I wish and pray that someday

I'll no longer be so scared

I'm tried of being up late

Of my own accord and no one else's

I wish to sleep and never wake

To wake and never hunger

To hunger but never eat

Till I taste a fruit so sweet

It completes