To understand , To Feel, To dream
I wish i could make you see the pain ive feltTo understand me and what i doThe nights i spent alone praying to god to save meThe days i smiled when all i wanted to do was cryThe times id beg for mercy and still was knocked downThe horror of feelings can be devestating and crippling as much as exciting Even when its over the feelings remainIts a roller coaster of ups and downs Its been blessed as much as it has been painful to endure The dreams i had to create and build a happier worldThe ideas and inventions in my head unaware of how to escape The days i agreed to things i didnt want because i was pressureedThe secrets i kept because of fearThe homes ive lost due to anger and hurt and mistrustThe people ive broke when i couldnt love my selfTo see how hard i was trying to protect people from this storm ive wheathered The days i spent trying to make someone aknowlede or be proud of meThe days i walked halls with my eyes on a mission to get somewhereThe homes i felt enpty inThe sunsets that all i wanted was my familyTbe nights id lay on the dock fearing whats to come I wish you could see the hurt of wanting your parents healthy and happy and thereThe joy and pain that comes from being raised with mixed roles gets confusingTo see the light of day of losing everything and everyone you loved To understand the cycle of life To know what it takes to over come the things that should have killed me