Truth
If only you knew what’s going on in my mind
If only you could see
The shadows that chase me
Through my mind
All my regrets
Swirling round and round
Haunting me more than a ghost
If I could tell you everything
Would I even try
Where would I start
At the dawn of time
At the day we met
Or would I start with today?
Why can I never tell you
Why do I shy away
Why am I scared of the truth?
Truth?
What even is that?
Truth is more complex than even legacy
Just ask Hamilton
It may seem simple
But it leads to pain
It leads to complex situations
Truth in itself is complex because it affects
The simplicity of life turning it complex instead
Oh how truth aches within me!
My truth begs to be set free
I so badly wish to tell you
I never stopped admiring you
No matter how it seems
I still regret passing up on the chance to be with you
But impulse over foresight
Hindsight over impulse
That’s how it goes
For human nature
How I wish I’d waited to be with you
Rather than looking at other options
Rather than holding out on hope
That the one who hurt me could change
Although they did
My indecisiveness now comes into play
I want to hurt them not
Yet I cant deny that I am still attracted to
Possibilities between us
Of something more than what we now have
Of something I dream about
That which keeps me awake
That which is last on my mind as I drift to sleep
The truth of us
The truth I silently recognize
The truth I’ll probably never speak
But, oh, how that truth aches within me!