I have yet to understand how a heart 

can be as heavy yet light 

such as mine. 

Plenty of thing weigh me down. 

Such as a death of a friend, my dirty lungs, 

and a lack of a mother's love. 

These things pull me down into a sea of misery. 

I can barley keep my head above water. 

But with them come life boats 

lead by loved ones and my own determination 

to swim to them and bring me back to shore. 

Where I plant my feet and kiss the ground 

because it's where I belong.