Not that I'm trying to keep track

But how many mouths has it been

Since I let you in

And how many hours have passed

When I consistently

Waited for a simple "HEY"

or a "HOW YOU BEEN "

if I'm wht you wanted from the start

Then why are you messing with my head

I'm so tired of being in my feelings

Because of you

Your messing with my heart.

 

And you think your the only one with problems?

Well I bet my hearts just as ice cold or maybe even darker than yours

It's because of ppl like you that I close those open doors

Like reopened sores on my skin that never seem yo heal completely

Leaving scar after scar

My hearts constantly set on self destruct

I have a lot of troubles of my own

And my soul holds alot of pain

I pray and allow gods hands to heal

But I have such

Insecure faith in his work

That I fear they go to waste.

 

If I'm supposed to be the one who you want then

Why do I feel so unwanted by you.

Tell me.... exactly how many times are you gonna so this

Quite game of cat and mouse with me

How many times are you gonna make me wanna try keeping your interest

How many time's do I have to be so persistent

With my inner emotions when it comes to you

Why are you always constantly Playing games with my head

Every time I try giving up, here you come

When I feel my weakest, there you go coming to me with such an unclear motive

It's like your so indescribable with want your truly after

That I always end up falling for your mystery

But I can't solve it,and you won't let me

Maybe I'm so simple minded that

The answer is blinding.

My mind may be to crowed with

Insecurities......

Those both physical and mental thoughts that leave my heart and mind

On self destruct

I fear that they will always get the best of me

Maybe I'm just crazy

And that none of these feelings

Are really because if you

Maybe it's all just me

Falling deeper in my insecurity

Maybe liking you is just to much for me

Your so high in the sky that I can't see

Despite how I try because you won't say anything

I lose control of my feelings

And lay lost

In my own

Kept insecurity.