THINKING ABOUT IT ALL
Am i not good enough for you?
Is that what it is?
I want to be over here, but you're pushing me over there
What you think about me, when was the last time I actually cared?
The roller coaster called life is going up and down, every which way
And I'm too busy screaming, that the words I'm trying to let out, I have no ability to say
I feel like I'm at the bottom,
But there are no Fairy God Mothers in this world to pull me back up to the top
If you're saying people don't change,
Then amybe you should stop trying it on me
Life's a book, man, turn the page,
See what's next,
Stop leaving yourself in suspense
I'm only on my first chapter, stop trying to speed me up
But where does number two start?
Life's a test,
I'm not living off of a chart
What happens when I die?
Does my chapter end?
I have no time to waste, yet there's very little to spend
Life's a dream, and when we die, we wake up?
Or is it the other way around?
Maybe were dreaming...
Or maybe... we're wide awake?
There will be a day, when everything is gone
Everyone is dead
They say that when you die, you're asleep forever?
But waking up again isn't a never
Life is a test,
And you should always be trying to get your score at your absolute best
Don't fall in with the rest
I barely know where I'm getting with this
To express what i feel in single words,
It would be a forever long list
What am i saying
What are you saying?
The fustration built up inside me
It's taking everything away
But away from what?
Home?
Love?
Here?
Life?
This world?
You?
I can't even answer,
Nothing is in my sight,
I want it back,
But i can no longer hold on tight
So I'm letting go
I'm letting it all go,
I'm letting you go
The light in here is so low
I can barely see your face to say goodbye,
Because, when you said you loved me,
It almost felt as if it was all a lie