My smile spreads like the red tint on ripening apples
Softly, slowly, then all at once
A goofy giggle slips out–– I can’t help it
Your hands run over my body while emotions flood the damn in my heart
Your eyes pose questions like an inquisitive child during a car ride
Curiosity brutally murders the cat
I know you wonder if the cat will come back
I meet your eyes wondering how to explain the terror I am experiencing
Ducky climbs you like a mountain
Quickly scrambling up to shower you in kisses
She adores you–– I adore you, too
Your smile calms the storm brewing in my soul
Our legs intertwine like vines on the trellis I so desperately desire
Your snores permeate the quiet
I rub my thumb in circles on your cheek
I stare at the ceiling yearning for answers of my own
Do you know?
Do you know how my heart soars as your hand grasps mine?
Do you know about the music I hear when you press your lips against mine?
Do you know about the smile on my face while you play games on your computer?
Do you know about the pink tint of my cheeks when I taste the cinnamon gum on your tongue?
You search my mind for answers like Indiana Jones hunts the Ark
Frustration eats away at your patience
I try to find the words–– I don’t know them
I stumble on my own tongue trying to share my heart with you
What do I want?
I want to fall in love, but I’m far too frightened
I want to be loved, but I’m far too unsure
The answers I need are far in the future
Won’t this end when we graduate?
I want a future, but I’m far too hesitant
I want a home, but I’m far too isolated
The emotions I’m experiencing are overwhelming
Won’t you be scared away?
I wrap my arms around you like a mama bear hugs her cubs
Fondly, warmly, without a thought of anything else
A warm sigh escapes your lips–– I smile at the sound
I trail my fingertips over your chest capturing mental snapshots
What am I afraid of?
I don’t want to hurt you, but I’m far too broken
I don’t want to get hurt, but I’m far too willing
I know we have the best thing
But the thing we have terrifies my heart