Take Your Marks
A sudden realization in the back of a subaru
A panic, driven by an anxiety I am clinically chained to
With all of the time I have been given and all of the love I have been given what have I done for myself?
What have I done on my own?
Practice begins, no introductions, no tutorials
Here I am in my brand new swimsuit and cap
Scared as all hell
Into the water I dive, surrounded by this choice to start anew
Out of breath
Cramping calves
Burning arms
And a smile on my face
A single length used to leave me incapacitated
And I think back, receiving a framed award
"Most Improved" tears welling
500 yards of pure joy
Pure pain, pulling through the thick and chilled water
They ask me why I do this to myself
That is it
I do this to myself
And that is what makes it worth it