Which side do you see?

Because currently, there is more than one side to me.

On the inside, I hope to be positive and sweet.

I want to help others. Even if that means to wash their feet.

On the inside, I want to travel and see the world.

I hope to spread joy to all the young boys and girls.

The inside is the side I do not let many people see.

The people who think they know me, will call me a fake because of the person I used to be.

That person who used to be me, is still the person that the world has to meet.

So many memories, not all my own, that i wish I could delete. 

The person I see as I look in the reflection,

is sad and lonely and has little direction. 

The girl on the outside has no filter and is cruel.

How is it that when I pointed out other peoples flaws, I still felt like a fool.

I have met people and have been saved, and on the inside it has seriously changed me.

But on the outside I am still expected to be the girl who is expected to be easily angry.

I know I can change. A slow trasition it will be,

But at least on the outside, it will finally and honestly be me.