Who am I?
I am the biggest master of disguise
Every wall surrounding me
Has collapsed
Leaving nothing but dirt and dreams
Yet I still manage to smile

While both my body and mind have yelled
"Give up, the battle is bound to be lost"
I have put my steel helmet on
For the strongest soldiers are always sent out first

When everyone around me was silent
Afraid to strike a nerve
Afraid to say the wrong sentence
Afraid to hurt the fragile, broken girl
I was never afraid to laugh
To heal every inch of pain
With the sound of a giggle from my niece
And the joy in my nephews eyes

As doctors break the news
As I am forced to repeat my story
Over and over again
"I'm 19, and I have cancer"
As I am forced to go on each and every day with a smile
Pretending to be okay when deep down uncertainty has taken over

Who am I?
I am a survivor
I am the joy of hearing "you are cancer free"
No longer needing to disguise my emotions
My fake smile has become genuine

The master of disguise, has retired
Say hello to the real me