I gotta say

I was living

the best life that I could

until

this summer.

This summer

was the summer of death and hardships.

This summer 

was the summer that changed my life,

this summer changed me.

This summer

proved me so wrong.

You see, I thought that 

I'd be with my friends,

and I though that

no matter what, we'd push through high school,

together.

I was so wrong, and the worst part was

that I didn't even see it coming.

This summer really changed me,

and I can't be the person who I was before 

summer started, I just can't.

I can't go back to being that girl

who thought that she would be okay

no matter the circumstance. 

Because I'm not okay, because

I'm falling apart faster

than I can pick up my pieces.

Too many things

happened at once, for me to even comprehend

what was going on around me,

and what is still going on around me.

I wasn't ready for this summer,

at least not completely ready.

How could I have been ready?

It's impossible to be ready, for

the summer I had.

And because of that,

I will never be so stupid again.

This summer

I became someone,

and I'm still trying to figure out

who it is

that I am.

This summer

a piece of me died...

that was the young, gullible piece 

of me.

This summer

has taught me many things,

and I shall

never forget, because it's

too important. 

It's too precious to just forget.

Then one day,

I will share that knowledge

with someone else,

but right now I think 

that it's best for me to keep it

in my thoughts

for now.

This summer happened,

and it's part of my past,

hell, it's still part the present.