Shame, disgust,
Frustration and confusion
Are all things I feel
Or is that just an illusion

Feeling suffocated and overwhelmed
On a daily bases
Crushed by a tidal wave of expectations
By familiar faces.

The never ceasing comparisons
Between he and I
Internally battling endlessly
To just be as good as this awesome guy

Success is everywhere
At times engulfing me whole
How does one top that
When not knowing which direction to go

At first, crystal clear goals
But over time, beginning to deteriorate
What am I to do now
That my grip on life is beginning to incinerate

Completely and totally oblivious
To what my future holds
Discovered an unexpected phobia
For the terrifying and nerve racking untold

The intoxicating façade of success
Can be extremely confusing
When there are so many success stories
Not sure which I should be choosing

The tragic flaw of the lack of will power
And more importantly, self motivation
I fear it will eventually bring
My ultimate misfortune

Struggling hard to find any release
Am only left with the weight of disappointment
How, oh how does one break free
To possess this universal achievement

The seemingly permanent barrier
Unwaveringly strong
Prevents any advancement or progression
On my journey to success, where I know I belong

Surrounded by love and encouragement
By none other than the best family
I know I can break through this barrier
And become the success I was BORN to be.