Sorry
I'm sorry that every other day I want to kill myself
I'm sorry that you think my depression is inconsiderate and rude
I'm sorry that I was shaking so hard I dropped my pen in class
No--I am not crying over math class
I'm crying because I can't focus anymore in math class
My life is literally falling apart
I've been losing all control
I'm starting to question if I was ever happy
Because right now I am so unhappy.
I'm sorry my depression makes me walk so slow some days & moves too fast the next
I want to literally break every bone in my back
a few times extra where you stabbed me
The stress is twisting my body
I want to twist my head off my body
Stick it above your fireplace so I can haunt you
Don't look at me like goddamn she's so pretty
That's all these boys every want from me
No one wants to get to know me
what's going to happen when I want to get married
What the fuck
Why would I want to get married
that's worse than a horror story
what if after 6 years they no longer love me
what the hell is love
it's been described to me a thousand times I still don't know the feeling
Every boy that's held me I questioned that feeling every goddamn time
I don't think I'll ever be sure
I'm too scared to want to be sure
lights off lights on
lights off lights on
lights off lights on
can we for once leave the lights on?