Sometimes

my eyes get to watering 

and idk why

 trying to stop these emotions as I continue to cry 

like a seed that grows a tree 

once it’s planted I can’t stop these feelings from growing in me 

I feel sad , rage and then defeat 

as I feel what’s inside murdering me , 

mentally slaughtered , an emotional mascre , 

the whole world is looking but no one sees this pain’s after her 

chasing her down taking everything she’s got 

as long as she wears a smile you’ll see everything she’s not , 

it’s like the pain shines thru with a reflection of beauty

 so all they see is what’s on the outside though the inside is  ruined . 

Tainted , broken beyond repair 

and no-matter how well you rebuild the pieces 

youll see the damage is still there 

now every time you think you’ve moved forward the progress seems unclear 

so how do you fix something  that is broken every where,

down into nothing

 how do I rebuild these pieces into something .