So Lost
Through pain and crys I stand there glaring
Seeing the aftermath of my mistake
I can't help but watch the pain their sharing
As I sit here wishing this was fake
My mind is here but my body isnt
I feel no pain yet mental tears fall on nothing
The family I had is now very distant
The thought of that keeps them rushing
I scream and yell "I'm still here"
But they only hear the sobs of others
Even down here I still feel fear
For whats to come for my loving brothers
This place where clouds hide the golden gates
Is not where I'm wishing my loved ones better fates