Slow Dancing
My mind is a labyrinth, and I’ve remained lost for ages
A monstrous and imperial maze filled with panic, anxiety, and anger
You found me naked on my floor
Covered in tears, blood, and whiskey
Beaten by the world
Battered from the abuse
Afraid to even ask for help, no matter how much I need it.
How is it that you were able to guide me out from
The depths of my unconsciousness when no one else could?
Then one after the other, parts of my world were put together to become Whole again.
I believe I think I’ve found the cure
To guide me from this monstrous labyrinth
It’s you:
Your voice, soft and tranquil
While I’m sobbing, panicking in the abyss of my imagination
Sitting with my back to the corner of two walls,
You are telling me everything will be okay,
Trying to bring me back into reality,
Eager to get me to understand nothing
Will come with those soft words of worry.
Your eyes, a beautiful dark brown I’ve never seen before
That can loosen the grips my anxiety has on me,
You tell me to keep my eyes on you.
Trying to make something click in my mind that we
Are the only ones in the world,
And when I look deep into your being
I know that I’m safe from myself.
Your touch, firm, but caring that stops
The anger spreading from my fingertips, trying to cause more damage
Your hands holding my wrists, talking to me with sadness in your eyes,
You seem so sad that I would even consider hurting myself,
But I will always choose to damage myself over ever hurting you
That’s how I remember our first night together.
Completely intoxicated, but I knew when you hugged me I was safe
I guess that’s how it started.
However, no one told me that you were an immaculate old soul.
That I should keep my heart under lock and key
I wasn’t supposed to fall so hard.
But I realized that through everything that has happened so far,
Even the smallest inconvenience
You haven’t left my side.
You’ve shown me the different colors of your life,
The secrets that you’ve kept buried for so long.
Our souls slowly learned how to slow dance together in
The darkness that has consumed our minds
You’ve left your mark in a corner
Of my heart, no one has ever been before
You are the contained chaos that I wish I knew sooner in life
You were never supposed to mean this much to me
I’ve looked deeply into your eyes and found something indescribable.
Somewhere in another life, we might
Be damn near perfect for the other
Perhaps I'll see you in another life
But for now, I guess we will
Have to be
Okay, with secretly needing to be together.