he had a past.
he was known for his drive
his reputation was based on his tendency to always have a beautiful, flawless girl
who gave herself freely.
but one day i guess
he got stuck on me.
i told him i was not the kind of girl
who was physically free with her body.
i could not allow myself
to do the things that other girls he was with had done.
i told him my body didn't compare
and my face made theirs look like a goddess.
but he stayed.
i told him touching brought tears to my eyes
because i never felt like i could fulfill his needs.
i felt guilty because whenever he said he loved me
my mind went back in time to when my father said the same To my mother
and i remembered the tragedies that followed...
he told me i was different.
he said he was in love with my soul
and the fact that i loved him for him
and not for his physical characteristics.
on our first date, he didn't touch me below my shoulders.
it wasn't until 4 months in that he asked if he could hold my hand.
it seemed he loved my inability to be loved.
nobody believed me
they warned me about his past.
granted, it frightened me also,
but something inside told me...
told me maybe it was true
maybe i was different.
he makes me feel beautiful.
like i can fly...
but even now some little voice pulls me back
tells me that regardless of what he claimed
attraction was skin deep
and human eyes are blind to the soul.