It pulled me in like a siren

It crashed into me like head on collision

on the highway of life

I was hooked

It became my forbidden fruit

The apple I wanted so badly

But knew I shouldn’t have

I indulged in it

I let it steal my sleep

My thoughts always turned back to it

Throwing itself on to me

I was willing to give up paradise for it

The poisonous juices were consumed so much

I knew I had to stop

But it was like a leech

Sucking the life out of me, draining all of my time and energy

Dr. Jekyll became my name

And Mr. Hyde was who I wanted to destroy

Every distraction brought it back to my attention

When I sobered a fire burned in me so

I wanted to destroy myself because I couldn’t let it go

I wanted it

But I knew it was wrong

It was my royalty

And I was the peasants who revolted

It countered me with shame and guilt

‘Who would ever look at you the same?’

I retreated from the battlefield

I have to defeat it

But what ammunition do I have

Where can I turn when I know the world will look down on me?