Sincerely The Girl With Life

Dear long sleeve shirt, 

I’m leaving you. I don’t need you anymore. You told me I need to hide them, hide the scar that were so embedded into my skin. The scars given to me by the blades of temporary satisfaction. The blades that were so enticing in my darkest hour with their whispers of peace and relief. But I won in the end, I’m still here powerful and standing strong, proud of my battle scars.  

Dear pill bottle, 

I’m leaving you. I don’t need you anymore. You told me that you could do no harm and the taste of your forbidden fruit would bring me to the satisfaction I yearned for. But your high didn’t last long and I became so addicted to your euphoria. I became too consumed in you that I took more than 10, slowly drifting. But I won in the end, I’m still here powerful and standing strong, valuing my body and choosing happiness. 

Dear rope, 

I’m leaving you. I don’t need you anymore. You started off as nothing more than the neighbor hood jump rope. But as I grow older you morphed into a seemingly pleasant escape route that would make it easy it on me but hard on my family. But I won in the end, I’m still here powerful and standing strong cherishing my breath.

Dear unconscious subconscious,

I’m leaving you. I don’t need you anymore. You told me you would bring me gifts and new ideas. I welcomed them not knowing they would convert into depression, anxiety, and the many other physiological beings. You told me that the darkness was the safest place to hide and that the light would lead me to disappointment cause it would eventually go a way like when the sun sets so it was better to stay there and be comfortable. You told me the long sleeve shirt, pill bottles, and rope would make my stay more hospitable. But I won in the end, I’m still here powerful and standing strong with a conscious mind screaming that I am enough, I am beautiful, I will succeed, I matter, I am loved, and never needed you all. 

Sincerely,

 The girl full with life

This poem is about: 
Our world

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