1 Corinthians 13:12 New English Translation (NET Bible)12 For now we see in a mirror indirectly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know in part, but then I will know fully, just as I have been fully known.  Sight 

 

If I just could see myself just like others see me.

If I was just the one that others want me to be.

Would I be then a copy or a clone of just another,

who in their chosen emptiness act like they are free?

 

If I could what I want to be would that fulfill my dreams?

Would I not be like others whose talent appears like cream?

Who is adored by the masses and who enjoy the touch,

that reaches into their emptiness as a form of death of such.

 

How do I appear to self in this array of confusion?

To whom in “me” do I project the one I choose to be?

Is it the one who meditates or the one who simply angers?

Or! The one who is locked up and is hungering to be free?

 

You will say: “You’re one my friend and you are not divided”

I marvel as I look at him clueless and wishing he could see.

If good and bad walk side by side in the pathway of my striving

why do I choose bad, while loving good, and no one hears my plea?

 

There is a “me” in “me” I know, who surely lives beyond me.

A “self” hidden deep within providing cleanness in my heart.

The one that I run from when in desperation for the selfish,

He who motivates and drives me and was with me from the start

 

Beyond my life on earth, there is where purity and beauty

interweaves my “self” unknown in the riches of His Love.

A place waiting so patiently for me, I try to discover

The thing I will not find myself unless I’m shown by God

 

The “self” in me He placed there while the “Self” of Him I quench.

The ”One”, Who speaks so softy and at times just will overwhelm.

The “One” that is so sensitive to catch each and every tear,

that “myself” cries for “self” for hurt and pain and fear.

 

Jan Wienen