Put me down

Push me

Hurt me

Cuss at me

Call us a toxic mix

Make it seem like we were chemically imbalanced

Show me that deep dark evil that only you can show me

Either way

The only memory I'll have of you is when you pulled my hair as we were kissing

I'll remember your touch,

Your smile,

The way your body felt when I held you in the bedroom

You're tongue and mine interacting like playful kids

I'll hide away your stubbornness

Because at first, it was cute

But at most times it was hard to have a civil conversation

Our forces of nature isn't natural when our forces are against each other

My warm fronts and your cold front create a shit storm of unnatural causes of damage

But once you were gone,

All I could say was,

“She could always call me on my crap”

I told people the truth of you

But never gave them whole story

Like the time I ignored you when I shouldn't have

And my regrets of rarely telling you sorry

When you came back for a second time,

I was willing to drop everything

And I did

I got what I wished for

But I only wished for a second chance of only a glimpse

When I should have begged for a lifetime with you

You...

And no one else

Like

No one else wants to see the one person they love with somebody else

You share so many memories with someone and seeing it gone just hurts

When I first heard your voice, it was a surprise to my ears

A surprise I could barely handle

But now I miss that voice as if you were here tonight yelling at me

But you yelled at me when I corrected you

And you knew that I was always wrong

Causing those frustrating conversations that I now miss

I missed the fights,

Not because of the excitement,

But because when we stopped, I could always expect your wake up calls of my favorite tune where I was the sunshine…

And I was only yours

And that shine grew dim when we grew in silence

The nights of seeing you as someone who looked at me the same is now over

The person I knew better than my friends

Someone that I knew how crazy they could be

And always understanding that using the words “crazy” and “you” in the same sentence was never a good idea

Unless I said how crazy I was for you

Like the craziness in my heart when you're head was buried in my chest and I held you and spun as we danced in circles to a song that I hated

But I only liked it when you were in my arms

I liked you when you believed in me

Believed in us...