Ephesians 4:19

19 They have no sense of shame.

They live for lustful pleasure and eagerly practice every kind of impurity.

 

Shame.

 

Shame that will be never wiped away

a sad reaction to a weak moment

Or was it a preconceived bad idea

that made me move before atonement

 

If rotten-ness is such a part of me 

and if death still has dominion

can it drive me into captivity

apart then from God's opinion?

 

Shame and guilt … Siamese twins

grow like wards all over me

The image  of what shows within

to appear against what I ought to be

 

Is it failure that I hate

or the trust missing in myself?

Falling once … forever late

no more innocence … no more self

 

My first lie … forever made

me untruthful … just a liar

My first take … what was not mine

forever more … a thieving friar

 

My first lust … appeared just a desire

To become sin when I thought of her

Followed by greed … envy that fire

that burned and fried my innocence

 

I guess the "good" is just a memory

that’s what I lost from day one.

Forever gone … until Calvary

as innocence appeared through the blood

 

Still my shame … and still my guilt

but also hope … given in love

Carries me on … a life fulfilled

based on Grace from above

 

 

Jan Wienen