this fear

its unfamilir

its unseemly

it is unbearable

it is never just wearable

I can't wear this fear like all the others

in my cloak covered in feathers

I weather fear out like a ship does the rain

but this one it doesn't feel the same

its unlike any other

its like my unknown brother

so close yet so far

waiting watching from afar

ready to pounce on every ounce or betrayal I give

every day every night

forever into the dark light

never to relive again