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Tue, 05/16/2017 - 13:22 -- bbelluh

Baby steps.
Just remember the baby steps
Of forgiving, and just forgetting.
Forgiving the hell you put me through during and after us.
Forgetting the amazing times you put me through during, and after us. 
Fuck You.
For making me feel like the only girl in the world.
This, ain't, no happy break up Rihanna song.
For ripping my fucking heart out of my fragile chest 
and shoving it in your dirty, lying mouth.
Fuck you, for trying to get me back.
Fuck you, for my vulnerable soul floating back to you.

Baby steps.
Just remember the baby steps.
Of forgiving, and just fucking forgetting.
You affect me
You don't understand 
HOW MUCH you affect me.
I don't even understand.
You may still be in my life
But that doesn't mean you haven't fucked me over millions of pointless times.
You hurt me every day of my life
But. That's why I love you.
I don't understand true love from a true man,
I'll only assume it's you, and only you.
You have me brainwashed.
I can't do this or that. 
I can't talk to them, I can't breathe the air of someone you think i'll leave you for.
But there's no one.
No one who can put me in as much pain, then fall in love with me again; like you can.
No one can partially forgive, and forget, like you can.
You make me crazy
You're such a disgusting person. 
That's why I love you.


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