One minute everything is fine. 

The next I'm going out of my mind. 

I sit laughing at the TV,

But still I feel like...not me. 

I want to claw out my eyes and bang my head upon a wall. 

But then I can just let everything go. 

It's fine. 

I'm fine. 

No I'm not. 

Who am I kidding?

I'm sick and tired of pretending. 

My whole world is caving in. 

But still here I am. 

The perfectly independent, functioning role model who knows what's going on. 

But what happens if suddenly I'm gone?