You were there for comfort,

Protection against those sounds, 

Sounds of mediocrity, 

Engulfing my mind, my body, my spirit, 

Enveloping my world, my perception, 

Till I felt numb, 

Then after a slight pause,

I'm in the air, 

My hands raised above my head, 

Lights flashing before my eyes,

As I lose myself in the sound of freedom, 

Freedom that enters and leaves my body,

Energy,

Blackness, 

An addiction that is supposed to be harmless,

But overtakes my life, 

The life I choose to live, 

But now it's been a while, 

And I crave for the sounds, the feelings, the freedom, the euphoria

I know better, 

No,

Yes, 

I long for the feeling of no feelings, 

But I know I can't go back,

My mind says no, but my heart aches yes,

All I know, 

Is that I'm lost without my ritual