It’s the realization that typical childhood experiences weren’t apart of your memory
You played, you laughed, you swam, but you didn’t smile
It’s realizing that your truth is not everyone else’s and your parents refuse to understand
You cried, you thought, you attempted, but you failed
The instability made you anxious, along with restless nights
And the depression made you lonely
The smell of clean carpet snapped you back into reality
And the one you’d just left lays written on thin pages
Another house, another school, another block of new kids
Another year of roaming empty halls, carrying homework you’ll never do
Another teacher who could care less about your success
And another year of insults thrown haphazardly
It’s realizing that high school is nothing like Disney
You type, you write, you read, but you don’t learn
It’s the realization that teenagers are ridiculously loud at 7am
You listen, you watch, you speak, but they hear nothing
The tests made you weary, not to mention irritated
And the buses made you sick
The ringing of the bells jolted you awake
And the peace of mind you had remains under layers of your subconscious
Another semester, another summer, another year of struggle
Another concert, another event, another banquet
Oh but now, it’s Graduation Day
You did it, you made it, you succeed, but your success is short-lived
It’s realizing that you finished only to start again
You pay bills, you study more, you go to work, but you don’t relax
It’s the realization that this is life’s cycle, a chosen destiny for you
You sit down, you kick up your feet, you sleep, but you don’t find rest
How many degrees does it take to get to the top?
How much work does it take to earn a vacation?
How many jobs do I need to live comfortably?
Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving…
Days made to embody family...
But you’re not a kid anymore
You’re a young adult living in the 21st century
People don’t deal in human interactions
Double taps are more important than character
And 5 years experience is required after 20 years of schooling
Get a job?
Work until I’m 70?
“Thank you, but we respectfully decline.”
It’s realizing that a life without freedom, is not a life at all
You love, you forgive, you understand, but you don’t forget
Yet if nothing else is true, by God, drink your coffee while you can
and the rest will follow.